I am 26 years old. I simply got into sex out of ignorance like millions of
young people today. My addiction placed me as the highest abortionist in the
world at age of 26 and now, I have a sad story to tell.
Until I found myself in a total mess, I never really had any Idea what
premarital sex was all about. I never knew it was so useless and killing.
Before I got into it, I use to think it was some fun and I dreamt of it more
often than not. I wished with all my heart to have a boyfriend whom we would
explore it together, little did I know that I was being nasty to myself.
Because of things I see on TV and magazine, I thought having sex was so much
fun, I fantasized about it each time I felt lonely. Only if I had known that
everything I see in movies and soap operas were just acting and make belief;
only if I had known that there is nothing in sex after all, the only thing in
it is self destruction; I think my life wouldn’t be this miserable.
It’s a pity i really had to learn the hard way and I really wish I had never
been born, I wish I had not come out into this deceitful world where nobody
cares about young people, all the so called adults do is how they would play on
the intelligence of young people in a bid to exploit and use them to satisfy
their insatiable sexual passion. I really feel bad about this wicked world.
My plight started when I was sixteen, then I was still a virgin and in
secondary school, I was ignorant of many things but because I see it every day
on the TV and internet. More so, a couple of so called Anti AIDS people visited
us in school a couple of times for lectures, but all they did was introduce sex
to us even more because they really had nothing but condoms to show.
Fine, they told us about AIDS, but at the same time, they also told us about
condoms, they never really said anything real about sex, they said we could
contact AIDS not through sex, but unprotected sex, which means there was
nothing wrong with sex as long as you could use condoms, but all of that I now
know very well are lies, and I wonder why men and women would enjoy telling
teenagers deadly lies like that.
Even though I can’t blame those people totally for my plight because they
weren’t really the ones that said I should go into sex, I still never forgive
them for encouraging me and other young people like me into sex with their
preaching of protected sex or condom. Even though I wanted to see what sex was
really like and I fantasized about it, some were within me, I was still very
scared of what may happen to me afterwards if l tried it, and it was that fear
that actually kept me away from it until I was sixteen.
By the time I was sixteen, my fantasy had gotten enough boost to express
itself with reliance to said to myself one day, “free yourself baby girl, there
is nothing terrible in sex, can’t you see everyone is doing it, by the way, you
can always use condoms nothing will happen”. So, I finally decided to let go of
my fears and embrace in totality my silly fantasies, and that was how I took
the very first step into this miserable life of illicit sex. I had absolutely
no idea of what I was going into.
I finally agreed to date this guy who had been disturbing me for more than a
year, his name was Andrew. Andrew was five years older than me. Both of us
began enjoying sex,
- we did it every seconds, every minute;
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I became addicted that I do not love doing it with condom anymore. Within the
period, I had 14 abortions for Andrew, and not only that, I cheated on him in
several occasions, I felt doing it with other guys will give me better
sensation but all were the same.
My school teacher got me and at the end of the day I had 6 abortions for
him. And worst among was my sexual affairs with my close relations, which
resulted to 5 abortions. Then I felt I was at the top of the world. I will
never forgive my friends who introduced me into partying and sleeping with old
men with potbelly and rough skin only in the name of sex.
Right now, all those men have gone, and then shadow of my past sexual life
still follows me around. All this pills and tablets I took are now telling on
my blood stream. At times I felt like committing suicide each time I remember
what the doctor told me, “Tessy, I am sorry, your womb is automatically damaged
on account of the several abortion you had”, “I’m sorry, you will never
conceive again in your life, but just thank God, you don’t have
HIV or
AIDS”.
I therefore, advise every young girl reading this piece today, to over look
every fantasy towards sex. Sex is good but it has time. And that is in marriage.
Keep yourself away from men. Make friends with those who mean good for your
future.
